Adolescence ------------------------------------ For the benefit of nothing My heart pales in the wake of self-imposed doom For no one's sake but my own I suffer through painful and uneven beats If I have a soul, then let it cry If I have a sense of humor, let it laugh If the sun is still shining, then let me smile But in this windowless room I have only frowns, frowns, frowns and panic Please let it be over soon. ------------------------------------ Damn Feels like being picked last for the basket ball team Feels like being a block of wood in a wood pile left to rot Feels like being shoved against a wall bleeding, unnoticed Don't cry, don't leave, don't show weakness Feel pain but don't flinch Feel your heart turn to lead and your chest feel heavy Breath in and out, hold back tears Watch the clock, tick tick tick, move faster Draw pictures, write poems, daydream Space out, escape, run away, be patient It'll all be better soon It's temporary misery but it comes three times a week, eighteen weeks a year It'll all be over soon, it'll all be over soon. ------------------------------------ Growth smart and shocking and hard to break and always growing reaching up past the sky beyond the world's fake faces ------------------------------------ [mocking] Oh you're sooo kind. [almost screaming] Oh you're sooo kind! Well I'd rather be stuck in a room with people who don't even know me than be your leftovers! [screaming] (chord) I'M NOT THE NICE GIRL YOU THINK I AM! (chord) I'd rather sleep with a barn on hay with the cows moaning and mooing I'd rather sleep on the sheet in cardboard box wrapped in newspapers I'd rather sleep in my own damn bed, yes! I'd rather stay at home But I'm going (chord) cause I'm gonna play nice I'm NOT The NICE GIRL you think I am I'm not the sweet girl you take me for I don't say "hi, how are you?" out of kindness Cheep Cheep Cheep little girls do your worst spread your rumors, and then play nice we'll all square dance in our hats and masks Tying the noose behind our backs. I'm not different than you in that except I never finish tying the knot ------------------------------------ Guys * Get * carried away They've got a list of memorized lines to say ------------------------------------ We young must always impersonate our parents, and for that we seem os very old, when indeed it is a sign, that we are so very young! ------------------------------------ End Adolescence